The End

As sad as it is, this is the last blog. My first semester as a college student is now coming to an end. I can't really say it was everything I excepted, but it was great. I have learned so much through these five months. I have met some amazing people that I am excited to spend the next four years with.
These past two weeks have been filled with so much stress. From two portfolios and final exams, there is really no time to play. I am ready to get everything over with and enjoy my long break. I have high expectations for next semester. Hopefully it will be even better than the last one.

Back at MC

Depressing. Its actually kind of funny. For four years of my life, I was the rebellious kid that always counted down my days until I moved out and was on my own. Well, now that's not exactly the case. I enjoy coming home, it happens to be a lot different now. It is so nice just to go home and relax and hang out with my family and friends. This week was not long enough. I am so ready to be back at home. Finals are not looking too great. I am just ready to get them over with and start new next semester. Only two and a half more weeks.

Holidays!

I am so ready for this semester to come to an end!!!! It is just becoming old and annoying. I am really excited about my new classes next semester. They seem a lot more interesting (except algebra). But moving on, my favorite time of the year is approaching. I never can decide which i like better, Thanksgiving or Christmas? Thanksgiving is always a plus, because well there is jut better food, and its my birthday! But Christmas is always good, because i see family that i never get a chance to see but at that time. I have no idea how to tie what i just said into Mississippi college, except for the fact im ready to leave and get a break! Well with all that said, HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Letting go.

Ever since I have been at college, I have been dealing with the issue of letting things go. Whether it has been relationships, grudges, or my past in general. It has taken a while, but I'm finally realizing what is best for my life. Today at church the speaker said something that really just touched my heart. It was something that I needed to hear, to reassure that I am making the right decisions by letting things go. It was "life is the sum total of the choices we make." We can choose waking with Jesus or walking with the world. For a while I had been choosing walking with the world, because it was just so much easier to do. I thought of every way possible to deal with my problems instead of going to God. Last night I hit rock bottom in a relationship, which has only happen to me once before, and that very moment all I thought was God. Before all I though was things of the world. I know its time to let go of the old, and start with the new. I believe being at MC and being at the new church I am at, has really helped me grow and be able to let go. I've always known that God would be there to catch me when I fall, but now I not only know... I can feel it.

Also moving on to a brighter subject.. I am so ready for next semester! I am really excited about some of my new classes! This past week I decided I was going to double major in French and Psychology. I am not sure what I will do with my french, but I'm hoping that God will be able to use me and french. I just can't want to see all the adventures and ups and downs my life will take!

Undecided

So second essay is finished for English... and we are about to start on the third. I am one of those people who likes to be given instructions and guide lines such as topics. I do not really like just writing about anything. Sometimes I honestly have nothing to say. I went back and looked at the blogs that I have written and none of them seem like a good essay.
My experience at MC has truely been amazing so far. It started off slow but I am beginning to enjoy it more and more. I know I have changed since I've been here. I am still the same Emily, just improved. I've grown up a lot. Whether it be college in general, or MC, something has had a major impact on my life.
I am just really excited to see what the next few years have to offer me. I have an idea that it will only keep getting better. I'll find my groups, find my friends, and find my place.

Since I've been at MC, God has worked in my life in so many ways. He is has put amazing people in my life. Directed me to an awesome church. And he put me in a great tribe. There is just so much to say I don't even know where to start. I guess I could start with the most interesting story.

There is this girl that I could not stand. I really did not like her. We met the summer of my jr. year at a camp. Then some drama happened with a boy my senior year and it involved both of us. This is when I really started to not like her. After that, we met again at a camp and our parents met and loved each other. We were both considering the same college, and we had a lot of the same friends. It was so odd. In the spring we found out we were both attending the same college, but I thought to myself I would never see her so it would be okay. On move in day a few doors down there she was. We both exchanged odd looks, and you could definitely tell there was some tension. For the first two months of school it was so awkward. It was like God was wanting us to be friends, but I could get over my selfish attitude to have a conversation with her. One day, I went in her room to see her roommate who I am friends with to get help on an essay. My friend happen to not be in the room so I asked this girl that I not like to help me... I was really trying. The next day we were working out at the same time and talked a little bit. That night she came in my room and we talked untill 4 am. It was so great to get all of those feelings out and now we are best friends. We both felt like God was trying to make us friends and I'm so glad that we are now.

There has been several more things like that where God has just placed things in my life. It is so great and I know that I am following the right path for my life.

community service

This week I did the community service for my essay. In all other previous service projects I have gained something from each experience. I love giving back to others and I believe it is very important. I was really excited about doing this service project. I love playing with kids and giving them special attention that they might not normally get. There is an undescriable feeling that I get when I see the smiles on the faces that I have hepl. Mississippi College believes it is important in engage in service learning. Being a Christian college, MC finds showing God's love and being a service to God and other people is a mission.

Thursday my assignment was to go to the apartment and play with kids. I was expecting it to be a little different. I didnt think it was very organized. There like 30 MC students and five kids. It was also very crowded. I honestly have to say I did not get anything out of this service project. This has to be the very first one that I didn't feel useful.

In my essay I plan to describe this experience but also talk about other service learning experiences that I truely did get something out of. I would love to try to do more service projects so maybe i will have a better experience than this past one.